To create the best possible version of ourselves we have to first admit we want to change, and then plan a system to achieve that change. This blog is an ongoing system for change. I will be adding content relating to my story, diving into spiritual techniques like kundalini yoga, guided meditations, running, diets, exercise, and great books I have read that have helped me change my perspective on life.
The world is itself addicted. Relapses are at an all time high, and opiate addiction is an epidemic. We are all searching on how to escape ourselves without really getting to know ourselves. This has led to a mass dysfunction in our way of life.
I use a holistic approach to my recovery, which focuses on four different fronts: the physical, emotional, mental, and spiritual. I follow many different mentors and leaders in the recovery field. I also go to 12 step meetings and Refuge Recovery (a Buddhist based recovery approach) meetings in Portland, Oregon.
What I am doing differently this time is that I am sacrificing my old habits in return for new ones. I run about four times per week. I recently have been able to clear an eight-minute mile. I also joined a boxing gym. I do MMA work out’s, the kind that works your body to the point of exhaustion. I am learning to defend myself to get over the anxieties I have and learn to be confident in the face of fear. I meditate on a consistent basis which is crucial to my happiness and well being. Learning to navigate my emotions and to create healthy responses to longstanding fears and trauma is where the sugar is at. I love to be in the present now.
I will be writing about my advancement in my spiritual practice throughout my blog. I will also be offering links to many different practitioners in my journey. And, I will be offering products, reviews, books, and other services that I personally use. Just a disclaimer, because I am an honest person. Most products that I review or recommend will grant me a small commission.
I guess you can say I am just searching for happiness just like any of you. I want to have normal ups and downs. Buddha says that “life is suffering” but really the attachment to life is suffering. It’s simple really and devastating to the ego. Everything changes. Another quote I love from the Buddha is “impermanence is the only thing is real”, this just simply means that everything will change. You will go through pain and joy in life, and you will also go through this in recovery.
I have seen so many times and (have experienced it myself) that when people in early recovery go through a phenomenon called a pink cloud. It’s the point when the perspective or belief system in someone is changing and they might see the world in a different way, or be letting go of the self-obsession that has basically been the addict/alcoholic identity that has been devastating their lives for so many years. It’s a refreshing and immensely powerful experience but it does not last. Just like anything else in life. We are going to have moments of pain and suffering. The ability to be able to adapt to this is crucial in long-term sobriety.
This blog’s purpose is to help others that have experienced the hardships of addiction and alcoholism or help anyone who might be suffering or confused about the actions of another in the throes of their addiction. My intent is to create an accurate picture through the lens of someone in recovery. I am very fortunate to be alive and thriving in recovery not just surviving when many of my friends are not.